How is your glass?

Why am I an optimist? I've been pondering this for a while now. I have a way of setting my hopes so high or thinking that the best will come out of things, when in reality everything always seems to be a big let down in the end. I don't think I can believe in luck anymore either. I don't think luck is ever on anyone's side. If I don't have it, then no one can. Can I have something go right? Do something right? Have something come my way? Well I'll tell you one thing. If something does, it's not that little heifer lady luck that is gonna have a hand in it. I need to stop building myself up for let downs. I need to get my head out of the clouds. Does this mean I have to be more selfish in my quest to live my own life? Is that the life of a pessimist? I don't know if I can do that, but this optimism stuff is really starting to piss me off and break off more pieces of me then I care to count.

Tonight, my glass is half-empty.

(Listening to "Bend and Not Break"~~Dashboard Confessional "I'm talented with reason. I cover all the angles, I can fail before I ever try...")