Stop

I hate how I'm always go go go and I don't stop for a minute to decide why I'm going. I have a why for every other situation but my own. I really don't know what to do anymore. I picked a shitty major hence why I have no job. Should I go to college again? Should I wait it out? Should I stay in Indiana or go to NY again? See, I'm always go, go, go in my actions and in my mind. I feel like I have no time to sit and make a decision because there is always something going on. I need to really sit back and decide what is best for me. I need to actually take my time this time instead of being like, yeah I will...and then I don't. It's probably hard for me because I'm impatient. And then it doesn't help that money is always an issue. It really doesn't. Crap. So here's to second chances, epiphanies, revelations, whatevers. Cheers.

GO

I just want to leave already. I wanted everything to be almost completely done with y the time I got back from my trip, but instead, nothing was done. So in the meantime, I'm left hyperventilating and wanting to cry and rip my hair out because I am stuck waiting. I was ready to leave 2 weeks ago. 2 god damn weeks ago and I'm still here waiting for the same shit. If this isn't resolved like, fuckin fast, I'm gonna blow up my credit card with a train ticket and take the bus for a month while the shit that should have been done when I got back is taken care of. I'm so fuckin pissed and upset and just ready to god damn leave. I'm ready to start over and work and everything, but I can't with this motherfuckin problem in the way. What the fuck. I'm so frustrated right now. I'm not even gonan proofread this sucker or do anythign creative with it. just fuck fuck, damn it, I wanna be gone already. The end.