LoNeLy

I don't think I've felt this alone in quite some time. I sat at the dock today thinking about everything I've left behind. I came to NY for family, and left all friends behind. I feel like I left a whole life behind that I can't get back. I'm lonely. Family is great, don't get me wrong, but everyone needs friends to turn to; to hang out with, etc. And I have lost that for what will seem like a long time...Sigh. I can't help but thinking I made a mistake; that my life recently has been a lot of mistakes served with a helping of regrets. I hate it. I don't know, maybe it's my hormones having free reign, or I just have too much free time to think about my life. Either way, it's a bit dismal at the moment. Here's a poetry corner for the day.

I give too much and don't get enough back

I feel so much it should be illegal

I can only do so much in this world to make everything right

I'm trying to make up for the things I lack.

I'm all for a fresh start; to go out on my own

I'm scared of what actually lies ahead of me

I'm scared of what I'm leaving behind

I'm a lonely girl treading water alone.

So give me the patience

Give me the strength

Give me the fortitude

Give me a chance.

That's all I want world. Is that too much to ask?

(Listening to "All Over You"~~Spill Canvas "This life is way too short to get caught up in all this stuff....")